My Love stroy :)

After for so long and many years that I did not touch my bloggie. Well, writing on-line blog has become one of my favourite hobbies during my high school.
And yes, I finally graduated from my high school and currently studying hotel management. Of course I did enjoy my first semester very well and there comes a guy who is same age with me, studying the same course and of course we are in a same group at that time. Opps! I mean till now, we are still same group :)
I accepted him after I find that he's not bad too! However, there goes how my love story started :)

Our relationship goes very well each day by day. Yes I have to admit I started to feel obsessed about him and stick with him like a ELEPHANT glue wherever he goes. We talked and planned about our future, our promises, what we hope and wish to do. We even think about getting married ;) He wanted me to be his wife and I wanted him to be my husband too. He's definitely a great guy who always shows his love and care  to me. At times, we used to fight for a small case and end up he always used to sayang me back (how sweet and cute are we right?)

As time flies, I started to feel insecure in this relationship because I was so worried that one day he might be taken away by someone and because of this, end up I created a lots of arguments and fights and I started to become nasty day by day. One day, he cried out and said he don't know what can he do to make me happy back like last time because everyday it seems like I become so moody and unhappy. I did apologize to him and gave him a warm big hug. Sadly and very sadly, I still did not make a change in me.

After all, our new semester started and at that time I already realize our relationship has been started to be not stable like last time. We had a very big fight until I cut myself. Of course I hurt him again but I'm seriously don't want to lose him. He asked for break up many times but I begged him to stayed.

Things change and our relationship started to become flat. He no more calling me Dear and sometimes he can even have a cold conversation with me. As things change, my life and my attitude started to change too.
He even ask me to bought a book entitle 'Change your mindset and not your man' which cost me around 60 bucks. I even plan that we no more sitting together, no more same group assignment because his CGPA is keep dropping from the day we start our relationship. I'm not even dare to find him to guide me in studies because I scare I'm giving him too much burden. I tried myself to find back my friends to help me and I even checked internet for more tuition. End up I did not to sign up because it was damn too expensive. I cried because I felt stress and I'm actually needed him by my side to support me.

Not even 3 months to prove to him, I went to see ah wong (the dog ) and we sit back in the car and chat almost 3 hours. At that time, he asked for real break up because he said he has no more heart to love me.
I cried out loud because it was unfair and I said I'm already change and now you want to leave me. He insist for a break up and I said can we talk about this after our graduation next year? He answered graduation next year which takes 1 year and I can't guarantee what will I do? and maybe he find another partner.

However, I did agree and respect his answer and decision but got terms. My terms is that he have to eat my breakfast everyday and not to tell others that we already break up as I do not want any gossips in college. He agreed my terms.

As day passing by, we won't talk to each other in front of our friends anymore. I remember what he told me that either one of us must step out and solve everything. I put down everything aside and step out, but still the same.