should i give up or wat??

after de sivik practise i went outside de hall which is percussionist was there.After dat, sarah told me Vancy today gt test!! thn i replied wat test?? she say bell test!!! i say OMG!!! i havent practise yet i oni de first bar oni!!! hadai tell me dat de test she will give another score nt dat one anymore.Tada!!! its my turn i was strugglingat there and dunno wat to do?? sudd they all shout at me VANCY MOVE FASTER!!!! thn i was blur ady and say oh! thn i go to sze yee there sudd my eyes full wit tears thn i jz ignore la! she give me de easier one and 2 minute must be done! my godness i dunno at all!!seriously i really DUNNO!!!! i dunno hw to read de score like c,d,e,f,g,a,b,c I DUNNO!!! i dun have music background ok?? and guess wat?? sze yee say she wants it by next week! i din answer her and sudd my tears dropping down on de floor so wat?? i cry la!! i tell myself dat de tears dat i cry is my result whnever de tears drop down i will step it on and walk away jz act like ntg happen..bt i can`t do it i decide to tell amanda teh dat can i dun learn bell?? if still cannt thn i choose to quit band i have no choice truthly in my heart I HATE BELL!!! y?? whn i was 5 years old i told my dad dat i wan learn piano i reali gt a heart to learn it and i reali wan to learn my dad take de cane and bit my hand and he say dun ever talk bout piano in front of me!!! and guess wat?? until dat day i started to hate piano in my life and dis is y i can`t play de bell!!! and dis is y i ask who can und my feelings truthly??